Showing posts with label Memoir. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Memoir. Show all posts

Thursday, January 29, 2015

My Memories of Troy 

                                                                                                                                                             
The Greeks had battled long and hard, but they could not penetrate the walls of Troy. Each side’s heroes eventually fought in individual combat at the foot of Troy’s mighty walls, but there was no final result to come of that bloodshed either. Then one day the Greeks sailed away, leaving behind a tall wooden horse. Was it a symbol of Greek acquiescence to the mighty walls of Troy? —Nay, it was to become an eternal symbol of treachery. I remember it well.

It was the summer of 1962, and my father was extremely mad at something I had done, or not done. So infuriated that he picked up my wooden toy chest and carried it out to the garage. I was banished to my room, alone, all my toy soldiers were in that toy chest now locked away in the garage on the far side of the house. My father really knew how to punish me, or so he thought.

While locked in my solitary confinement, I sought the refuge of reading. I took out a volume from my Golden Book Encyclopedia set, and it fell open to the story of Troy. How wondrous, if I only had my toy soldiers, surely I could find among them two different sets of Hellenistic toy soldiers to do battle, but they were all locked away, and out of reach.

I slowly surveyed my room, my mind empty except for the singularity of purpose, that purpose, my thoughts of recreating in my bedroom, the siege of Troy. 

The result of my raw materials survey: The Golden Book Encyclopedia, twenty-four volumes. A box filled with pennies, and two, six-sided dice, one red, one gray. I smiled broadly as my fertile imagination bore fruit. 

Let the battle begin!

I laid my encyclopedia volumes on their sides, piled three high and staggered back about an inch—bound edge from bound edge, leaving enough room for two pennies to occupy the depth of the steps that the short staggered piles of books had created. When construction was completed, there on my bedroom floor stood, “The Mighty Walls of Troy.” 

I then set about the task of separating my pennies into Lincoln memorials and wheat backs.  The Lincoln memorial is a building, so those pennies will represent the Trojans, the wheat backs will be the Greeks.  The dates on my wheat back pennies ran across decades, but my memorial backs were fewer in number and most of them were 1959, with some 1960 and 1961 pennies in the mix. This disparity in dates will work well in my game plan. I set my few dozen defending Trojan pennies on the walls of Troy, and arrayed before them two or three hundred, wheat back Greeks.

CHARGE!  The clash was calamitous. As opposing pennies came into contact they were flipped to their dated side, the dice were rolled, gray for the Trojans, red for the Greeks. The last digits of the penny’s dates were compared, and the difference, if any, was added to the higher numbered penny’s dice roll. Then the penny rolling the lower combined total, stayed on its flipped-over side; the losing penny was now a DEAD soldier.

At the end of that afternoon’s battle, hundreds of pennies, most of them low dated Greeks, lay dead before the walls of Troy, upon my bedroom floor.  The carnage lay heavy on my mind, and the smell of copper was thick upon my tarnish-tainted fingertips.

Then my bedroom door creaked and opened slightly. It was my Father poking his heads in to see what was up. He quickly closed the door and walked down the hall to where my Mother was in the kitchen preparing dinner. Then I heard him say in a loud and exasperated voice, “Son of a bitch, it’s impossible to punish that damn kid!”


You were right Father. I have always possessed the unique ability to adjust to, and overcome adversities in my environment. It is a talent that has served me well for all of my years.

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

Night Owl, White Owl


I had labored long and hard in the forest, cutting and stacking firewood. My muscles ached as I undressed and unzipped my sleeping bag. I sat upon the lower bunk and turned down the Coleman lantern. The last waves of it’s light, like ripples in a pond, traveled to the walls of my cabin, where they disappeared into the infinity of the night.

I stretched my legs down into my sleeping bag, and propped my head up with my pillow. My eyes opened just a little, seeking to answer the question of why the cabin seemed to still be unusually bright. My query was answered as my eyes were filled with the beauty of a rural Pennsylvania night sky shining through the cabins only window--with ten-thousand stars illuminating the heavens.

I closed my eyes and drifted off into a deep, restful sleep. A kind of special sleep granted by Mother Nature, only to those who labor long and hard in the wilderness of this earth.

Then, it started. After too few hours of this wonderful reward of deep sleep, it started.

“Who. Who-who-whooo.” Please go away Mr. Owl. “Who. Whoooooo. Whooooooo.”

“YOU, that’s Who.”  Uh, I am not going to put up with much of this.

Still in my long johns, I slipped into my work boots, grabbed an empty bean can from the trash, and stumbled out into the crisp early morning forest air.  “Whoooo.” I turned to face my nemesis. There behind me, on a branch of a tall, old, Hemlock tree, was an owl, a pure white owl.

I was about to toss the empty bean can at him, but it abruptly started to snow, quite fiercely, and the icy crystals stung my sleepy eyes. The owl took flight and disappeared deeper into the mystical, moonlit-snow-globe of the forest.

I turned to scurry back inside, but as I did I was struck with fright as I saw a rather large creature lumbering down the streambed on two feet, some fifty yards away. It did not turn to look at me, and I dared not take my eyes off of it. I fixed my terror struck gaze at the wall of reeds where he disappeared into the swamp.

I did not get much sleep for the rest of the night. It’s hard to get comfortable with the cold barrel of a loaded shotgun, lying in bed next to you.

I knew that as soon as it was eight o’clock, Old Lester at the General Store would have his door open and coffee brewing. At seven-thirty sharp, I started to make my way up the forest trail to the road. I followed the road down the mountain to Lester’s General Store. When I was ten feet away from his front door I saw him turn the door-lock and a dirty old sign, to OPEN.  In the course of our morning conversation, we determined that it must have been a bear walking on two legs, maybe it had cut it’s front paws and couldn’t walk on them. Either that or it was a bear that had escaped from the circus… yeah, right.


What it is, is a great story about an owl, and maybe, it’s about that big hairy thing that lives deep in the back woods of rural Pennsylvania. The big hairy thing that the locals don’t talk openly to city-folk about, or maybe, it was just the icy snow in my sleepy eyes.

Monday, August 19, 2013

Celebration of Love.

Our eyes meet, we need no words to be spoken between us.
We have done this before, many times.
I embrace you with all the poise and charm, you expect of your champion.
I hold you in my arms as we move as one body in the night. 

My stomach to yours we glide through positions, muscles straining in unison.
Soon you relax in the certain safety of my manly embrace,
as I lead you step by step through  graceful rhythms of love.
Twisting and turning with elegant delight.
 
My right hand on the small of your naked back, my left behind your head.
I lift you up, my face to your breast as we slowly roll, twist and turn.
Your legs wrapped tightly around me,
you arch back.

I grab your shoulders your elbows your forearms
and finally your hands and mine clasp as you continue to lean backwards,
slowly… sensually…
lingering in each moment of sinful delight.

Suddenly your arms fly up and surround my neck,
and you kiss me in perfect time to the final beat of ecstasy.

The music stops,
you slide off of me and onto your feet.
I gracefully hold your hand high as we present ourselves one last time to the audience,
a final bow to the judges.

I lead you off the dance floor to the table reserved for couple 112
Where we rejoin our friends and lovers, yours and mine.
They leap to their feet as our score for Argentine Tango is announced.

The ballroom erupts in celebration of our victory.

Friday, July 5, 2013

Eight Months On

Eight Months On

It’s eight months on since the howling wind pushed the sea over the land, over the streets, over our homes and over our hearts.

Eight months on and the sound of generators, chain saws, loud speakers on Humvee’s and the crying of wives and children, and of ourselves; has been replaced by the sound of hammers and skill saws, as the work of recovery has moved outside into the summer heat.

Eight months since the photo-op for Cuomo and Schumer. Eight months since the EPA was the first government organization in the neighborhood…Handing out fines for home heating oil spills to the downtrodden and desperate homeowners.

Eight months on since the Nationalist Chinese International relief organization handed the worst hit homeowners Visa gift cards, While the United States Government, the State of New York, the County of Suffolk, and the Town of Babylon, FOUR LAYERS OF GOVERNMENT …did nothing. While the Red Cross gave us bottled water, tainted food, expired canned goods, the toll free phone numbers for FEMA and the Suicide Prevention Hotline.

Eight months on since it took an act of Congress for my insurance company to pay off my flood claim, after 33 years of our paying premiums, and 67 of the bastards in Congress voted against it.

Eight months on since the government called me and said, you have money, we will make you a loan, even with you and your wife both recently unemployed …because if you default on the loan we’ll just take your 401K.

Eight months on since my country turned it’s back on me in my hour of need. 


Eight months since my wife and I picked ourselves up out of the mud. WE DID IT ON OUR OWN.

Thursday, April 25, 2013


Full Bellies and Mature Relationships                                                          

                                                                                                      
Alone at the end of the evening
Snifter of amber liquid in my hand
Smooth and warm flowing down my gullet
Until it comes to rest on Filet Mignon and Crème Brule

Flat screen monitor
Illuminating my face in the dark of night
The keyboard calls to me, the blank page­­–mocks me.
The poet smiles back at them –with confidence.

Hours pass like minutes
Rivers of rhyme flow like mighty torrents
Muddy rivers suddenly run clear
With the changing of –just— one—word.

Never truly alone, on any evening.
Amber liquid, Keyboard, Flat Screen Monitor
And the sweet kiss of the one I love, fresh upon my lips
As she leaves me to my writing, and goes upstairs to bed. 

Tuesday, April 23, 2013


Pain-Filled Poetry and Sad Songs                         

 I took a walk outside to clean up the lawn.
Sprinkled among the grass and dead bushes in and out and in between
I saw broken sticks of every color shape and size and such …
To tell the truth with all that I saw…My battered spirit saw too much.

Rusting screws and nails…
flat tires in the making,
Lids from jars and metal toy cars
Lay in the spring sunshine baking.

A foot-long section of washing machine hose,
two quarters, a nickel and a dime…
a screwdriver blade, an empty can of Glade,
A wristwatch stuck in time.

I carry a black plastic trash bag as I roam my yard 
picking up everything in sight…
Nothing I find is as disturbing as a burned cedar shake, 
from the cottage on the corner that burned down on that horrible night.


I find an endless variety of our past life’s treasure,
now it is trash, because now it is broken, or simply not where it belongs…
Our possessions, yours and mine, inexorably tainted by Mother Nature’s wrath,
Things only useful today as the stuff … of pain-filled poetry and sad songs.

Tuesday, April 2, 2013


Two Young Hearts, and One Park Bench

                                                                                                                                            

Our instructor gave us an hour and a half for lunch.  That was pretty standard for a software release training session back in the 70’s.  It would be plenty of time to pop into a Deli, grab a sandwich, and walk a few blocks to the park so I could sit and eat. 

Eight bucks!  New York City prices, but it was a New York City sandwich, massive, and loaded with meat and condiments.  I would indeed have to find a place to sit and eat or I’d make a mess of myself. 

The park was crowded for such a brisk November day. Then I saw a spot.  Two young women, one black, one white, sitting on a park bench that was plenty big enough for the three of us.  Both young women were beautiful.  As I approached the bench I recalled how my college roommate from Philadelphia would have referred to the beautiful woman of color, “She think she be the Queen of Sheba.” So then, sitting on the bench there is one, Queen of Sheba, and seated next to her, a heavenly vision, with a peaches and cream complexion highlighted by the brisk November wind on her cheeks.  Her dirty blond hair was shimmering in the autumn sunlight, and so nicely laying across the shoulders of her expensive camel hair jacket.  There was a halo of propriety around her; she must be “The Snow Princess.”

As I approached, the Queen of Sheba elbowed the Snow Princess and I read her lips as she said, “Here comes a good looking guy.”  She whispered something else unintelligible, and the Snow Princess broke into a broad smile, but did not look towards me.  Then the Queen of Sheba stood up and started walking away.  I sat down next to the Snow Princess and started to unwrap my sandwich.  The Snow Princess turned her head slightly towards me and she timidly said hello.

Her name was Christine.  Everything about her was high class.  Her scrupulously neat appearance, the pure white of her perfectly aligned smile, the CC logo on her wrap-around sunglasses. I could not see the label on the clothes she wore, but I did not have to, my eye could tell quality when I saw it.  Her posture, her inner cool, her charm; everything said money, everything that is, except the ease with which she was having a conversation with me, a total stranger.

We talked and listened to each other like two shy yet eager young lovers on a journey of mutual discovery.  In a mere 20 minutes I knew her favorite song, favorite movie, favorite book, and the TV shows she loved to watch.  On the other hand, I was a bit hard pressed for casual conversation. I was not well read at the time, I hated TV, and having recently graduated from a Southern school, our musical references were quite different. I had to fill her in on what the band  Lynyrd Skynyrd was all about.

All the time her up-town poise was palpable.  I dared to study her with my eyes drifting over her, head to toe, whenever her head was tilted upward or away from eye contact as she spoke.  Her brightly polished sensible heels, her long thin legs, covered in exquisitely tailored fall pants.  Her hands folded lady like in her lap, a strap around her right wrist that must be securing some expensive beaded purse, but most importantly, no wedding or engagement ring in sight.

Sooner than wanted the Queen of Sheba returned.  Her jacket was parted just enough to reveal her green scrubs and ID Tag.  “It’s time to get back home Christine… almost one.”

Christine rubbed her index finger over the face of her wristwatch, stood up suddenly and while still looking straight ahead she said, “I’ve really enjoyed meeting you Don, perhaps we will meet again.”

“I’d like that very much Christine, it was wonderful meeting you too.”

Christine dropped a bunch of white sticks from her hand and pulled back on the strap around her wrist, snapping the white sticks into a single white rod.  The Queen of Sheba took her by the arm as Christine rhythmically tapped her way out of the park heading West, and I turned and walked to the East, back to my seminar, my uneaten $8 sandwich still in hand.

Saturday, February 2, 2013


Why I write                                                    

By D. E. Allen

A pain felt but not spoken, can crush you deep inside.
But when read aloud in public, there is nowhere it can hide.

A joyful memory is only that, it's greater when openly shared.
If not written and read it will just fade away, as if nobody cared.

I write to make others happy, I write to make them cry.
I write with haste to get it all out on paper, before the day I die.

I write to entertain you, to make you feel, and make you think.
My writing does that for most of you, yet others it drives to drink.

In closing my dear compatriots, my fellow writers, near and far.
I wish you words that flow like rivers of rhyme, good fortune and a guiding star.

Friday, January 18, 2013


Homeward Bound                                                                                                         

If we leave right now the tide table says we have an hour and a half until the morning high.
We are filled with apprehension for we know not what awaits us.
Always prepared, we pack our boots, our chest waders, the camera
And so we set out, full of hope, and homeward bound.

It has only been 24 hours, the traffic lights are still out, the stores are still closed.
There is not much to see as we enter the neighborhood.
Piles of broken Phragmites, pushed half way up the matted lawns by natures fury.
So we drive on, still hopeful, homeward bound.

Heading ever southward on the neighborhoods main road,
The scene grows steadily worse with downed wires and the roots of fifty-year-old trees
 forming the ropes and poles of natures new grass carpet tents.
We drive on slowly, picking our way through the wreckage, homeward bound.

We must stop. The road is still closed by flooding with a half mile yet to go.
“You better have waders.” Came a shout from the house beneath a downed tree.
“The water is up to here.” He pointed to his belt. “Come. Sit on my stoop to change.”
And so we did, as hope faded and stark reality settled in. Then we went on, homeward bound.

It is a heart-straining trudge in ice-cold water. A waist-deep-half-mile of North Atlantic Hell. 
My legs grow numb, my heart pounds in my chest with every step I take, and the tide is still rising.
My mind replays the news reports of so many men having heart attacks. 
Pace yourself.  Don’t die now.  She needs you.  We are homeward bound.

At 50 yards we can see the high-water mark, half way up the bay window.
I shout commandingly; “We’ll only have 20 minutes to look around, or the tide will cut us off.” 
There will be no time for precious memories, there will be no time for tears. 
But at least we are together, and homeward bound.

I unlock the door and I must put my shoulder to it to push it open.
Yesterdays prized possessions, are today’s debris that floated to the doorway, and blocks our way in.
I find a figurine that belongs in the den, in the mud of the living room, and I instinctively clean it.
The first small step, of a very long journey, homeward bound.

Thursday, October 25, 2012


Modern Traveler Blues                                                         

Sitting in the airport, the view just can't be beat.
Watching people strip down to the waist, from my gate F seat.

Oh my here comes a Grandma, they're going to touch her where?
Gee Granny is starting to smile, I guess she does not care.

Now here come two businessmen, they look a little bit mad.
TSA took away their laptops, after wiping them with a pad.

Good news! TSA is handing them back, but they sure did annoy.
How dare they ever come between, a techie and his toy.

Those two guys had better lighten up, they really have the blues.
The one guy is still so friggin’ mad, he just forgot his shoes!


Still sitting in the airport, still waiting for our plane.
I think we are in Philly, they’re all starting to look the same.

We’re on our way to Knoxville, then driving to the sticks,
We're going to change our lifestyle, just call us two old hicks.

There’s limited Internet access, and no cell towers do you see.
It's just like here in terminal F
 , with my I-pad on my knee.

I cannot get to Facebook, no updates from CNN
There is no internet at all, do you remember when? 

They're making an announcement. What the heck did she just say?
Oh wonderful, wouldn't you know it, another 2 hour delay.

Tuesday, October 23, 2012


ENCINITAS 81                                                                                                                      

No you Road Atlas addict.
I’m not referring to a highway.
It’s a special place at a special time.
Back in the bye-gone past called yesterday.


A Spanish mission on a hill.
Split into apartments I think three or four.
With its terracotta roof and bleached white walls,
And a huge, arched, heavy wooden door.


One was my Brother-in-laws apartment.
He shared this Alamo with three ladies I recall.
He swears there was no funny business,
Yeah right, I’m sure he had a ball.


We slept on a waterbed there for the first time.
Just once, my back was killing me in the morning.
“I told you things were different out here.”
I should have heeded my wife’s warning.


Walking down the hill towards the beach
Past the Classic Movie Theater, past the Jesus Pizza place.
They would make any kind of pie you wanted,
but be sure to give thanks … and say grace.


We walked down the narrow path
Along a cliff face to the stony beach.
There were people 60 and 70 years old
Chasing Frisbees that were tossed out of reach.


Listening to Beach Boys music.  Wearing wet suits
and doing tumble salts into the waves.
Young and old were intent on having a ball
Until the day they awoke in their graves.


On the last night we went to a 5 star restaurant
in the place called Cardiff by the sea.
I thought I looked fine in my three-piece suit,
but everyone just stared at me. 


Our Maitre-de in his flip-flops,
our waitress in her terrycloth shorts.
On the beach the guests were playing “Over the line.”
It was a game like “beach softball” of sorts.


We toasted our host and thanked him
For his hospitality by the sea.
But we yearned to get back to old New York.
            And our life of normalcy.

Monday, October 15, 2012

The Death of Summer                                                                                                                          

Dark clouds spread across the morning sky as if the great author of the world has dropped his ink well onto the atmosphere below.

There is a chill in the air. The South wind with it’s equatorial warmth is gone, and the North wind sails over great fields of ice, and it permeates every bone in my body.

I descend from my bedroom.  The steps of the staircase creak with friction, wood on wood, or are those the creaks of my joints, bone on bone?

I sit on my assigned half of the loveseat in the living room.  It no longer surrounds me with the warmth of a friend, but with the unfamiliar cold of a stranger. 

I cuddle under a colorful crocheted throw, and click on the TV remote.  A news anchor and his foil banter endlessly about last night’s sadness, as the weatherman starts to lie.

Sadder, and darker still is my uncertainty about what the season of sleep will bring.  The first rumble of the oil fueled heating system plays bass to the funeral dirge of the season. 

Tuesday, September 18, 2012


Reunion                                                                   

By D. E. Allen

 I just learned that Cliff Bleidner, respected Poet and Chairmen of the Performance Poets Association, lost his mother yesterday.  I wrote this poem some time ago while reflecting on experiences I had after losses in my life.  So here is; Reunion, for Cliff, and all of us who have suffered loss.


I thought I saw you again today.
But it was just a glint of sunlight where the shadow of a tree should be.
My eyes playing tricks on my mind, and for a moment, it brought you back to me.

The feeling was so different.
For that fleeting moment the empty spot in my heart was full once more.
Then again in a moment, the emptiness returns, for you have gone to the other shore.

The days drag on and on.
I know that soon enough it will be my turn to cross over to eternity.
Even though I can feel you all around me, I still question if reunion is a certainty.

I must stay strong in faith.
I must believe that reunion is assured for if I believe otherwise…. You’re gone.
Oh no, if I dare to think otherwise you’d be lost forever, and my heart could not go on.

I thought I saw you again today.
And in a moment of perfect clarity I realize that I did see you, I did, I did I say.
Because you knew that if I saw you, even if only in a flash, it would help me, to find my way.

Tuesday, August 21, 2012


Thank you all.                                                                                                                            

I have been reviewing my Blog Audience Tracking Statistics.  I’d like to thank my North American and United Kingdom audience for their fantastic level of support. 

Now for a most welcome surprise.  I extend a special thank you to my foreign readers who have embraced me and have been reading my English Language Blog.  A Special Shout Out to my many readers in TAIWAN, FRANCE, VENEZUELA, GERMANY, SOUTH KOREA, NORWAY, UKRAINE, NETHERLANDS, IRELAND, RUSSIA, JAPAN, AUSTRALIA, and PAKISTAN.

Please share my blog with all your friends.

Thank you world.
Sincerely, 
Donald E. Allen