Tuesday, July 7, 2015

Channel Surfing                                                                                                                                                                       

I have not yet written today;
a trip to the dentist, then the drug store,
followed by the supermarket, the card store,
finally back to the drug store.
Now it’s getting late,
almost time for another painkiller.
Maybe I’ll wash it down with some Scotch.
Good scotch.
Can’t stand the cheap stuff.
Love the good stuff, one shot, maybe two.
Painkillers in different forms, pills and liquid.
Then maybe I can get something written.

I put on the TV
and look for some inspiration.
I see cops busting bad-guys,
Hawaiian cops and robbers.
I hit Channel-up and some old man is choking to death
on his own phlegm.
Don’t smoke.

Quickly I press Channel-up, again, and again.
Trying to Channel-up far enough—fast enough
to get away from my 30 years of smoking.
I Channel-up so far that I find myself Channel-down…
Channel-down and back in time.
I see Little Joe and Pa and Hoss;
an entire cast of dead people from long ago.

I thank God I’m alive

and I start to write.

Thursday, May 7, 2015

The Disappointment of Raymond Bradley

                                                                                 

“Mr. Charwoski, I think that if you listen to me for just a few minutes, you will understand why I am the most qualified person for the job of Sr. Accounting Clerk. You see Sir, I started here five and a half years ago as a Junior Associate Accountant. I worked the first four years of my career under the tutelage of Mr. O’Brien, and he taught me everything I know about the company. I was sad when he retired, but he is quite happy in Florida, and he has three cats to keep him company. He is also very active in his Senior Club and has served as the clubs Treasurer for the past three years. And—

Mrs. Johnston, stop looking at me like that, stop it, STOP IT RIGHT NOW!

You see, Mr. Charwoski, she hates me. She has hated me ever since I showed her expense report to the Independent Auditor’s Review Team. DON’T LOOK AT ME LIKE THAT. I’M WARNING YOU, MRS. JOHNSTON.

So, like I was saying, Mr. Charwoski, um, I have the most experience, and so when smarty pants Ms. Jones here, got the job instead of me it was very disappointing, and I think that if you could see the promotion review teams paperwork you would agree that I am much more qualified than her. But Mr. Brownell couldn’t find the paperwork in HR, could you Mr. Brownell, COULD YOU!”

“We have a phone wired directly into the conference room, Lieutenant.”

Ring, Ring, “Pick up the phone Ray, come on, be a good boy, pick it up.”

“Hello?”

“Ray, is this Ray?”

“It’s RAYMOND, who are you?”

“My name is John. Raymond, can you tell me what is going on up there? There seems to be some kind of a big misunderstanding going on, and, well I think I can help. Will you let me try to fix things for you Raymond? But first you have to promise me not to hurt anybody, OK, Raymond?”

How can YOU fix things? You have no idea of how they treat me. They hurt me, THEY HURT ME ALL THE TIME.”

“SWAT team is still 5 minutes away, Lieutenant.”

“Raymond? Raymond. Stay on the line with me, Raymond. Pick up the phone. Raymond?”

BANG ! …  BANG ! …  BANG !BANG !

“You can’t fix anything. You’re a bad person just like they were. You’re all bad people. The world is filled with all bad people. I hate everybody. Everybody always hurts me. Everybody. Everybody.”


BANG !

Monday, February 2, 2015

Review of April 1861 on Amazon...

I just finished reading April 1861. It is an excellent example of historical fiction through poetic verse. I was never a big fan of poetry, But this book reads like a short story.it is very much a dedication to the bloodshed in this most terrible period of American history. Mr. Allen writes about all the things that brought on the American Civil War,such as the secession of the Southern States, and the attack on Ft. Sumter including Historical figures like Robert E. Lee and Abraham Lincoln.
So if you like Historical fiction and the human spirit you will love April 1861.

Thursday, January 29, 2015

My Memories of Troy 

                                                                                                                                                             
The Greeks had battled long and hard, but they could not penetrate the walls of Troy. Each side’s heroes eventually fought in individual combat at the foot of Troy’s mighty walls, but there was no final result to come of that bloodshed either. Then one day the Greeks sailed away, leaving behind a tall wooden horse. Was it a symbol of Greek acquiescence to the mighty walls of Troy? —Nay, it was to become an eternal symbol of treachery. I remember it well.

It was the summer of 1962, and my father was extremely mad at something I had done, or not done. So infuriated that he picked up my wooden toy chest and carried it out to the garage. I was banished to my room, alone, all my toy soldiers were in that toy chest now locked away in the garage on the far side of the house. My father really knew how to punish me, or so he thought.

While locked in my solitary confinement, I sought the refuge of reading. I took out a volume from my Golden Book Encyclopedia set, and it fell open to the story of Troy. How wondrous, if I only had my toy soldiers, surely I could find among them two different sets of Hellenistic toy soldiers to do battle, but they were all locked away, and out of reach.

I slowly surveyed my room, my mind empty except for the singularity of purpose, that purpose, my thoughts of recreating in my bedroom, the siege of Troy. 

The result of my raw materials survey: The Golden Book Encyclopedia, twenty-four volumes. A box filled with pennies, and two, six-sided dice, one red, one gray. I smiled broadly as my fertile imagination bore fruit. 

Let the battle begin!

I laid my encyclopedia volumes on their sides, piled three high and staggered back about an inch—bound edge from bound edge, leaving enough room for two pennies to occupy the depth of the steps that the short staggered piles of books had created. When construction was completed, there on my bedroom floor stood, “The Mighty Walls of Troy.” 

I then set about the task of separating my pennies into Lincoln memorials and wheat backs.  The Lincoln memorial is a building, so those pennies will represent the Trojans, the wheat backs will be the Greeks.  The dates on my wheat back pennies ran across decades, but my memorial backs were fewer in number and most of them were 1959, with some 1960 and 1961 pennies in the mix. This disparity in dates will work well in my game plan. I set my few dozen defending Trojan pennies on the walls of Troy, and arrayed before them two or three hundred, wheat back Greeks.

CHARGE!  The clash was calamitous. As opposing pennies came into contact they were flipped to their dated side, the dice were rolled, gray for the Trojans, red for the Greeks. The last digits of the penny’s dates were compared, and the difference, if any, was added to the higher numbered penny’s dice roll. Then the penny rolling the lower combined total, stayed on its flipped-over side; the losing penny was now a DEAD soldier.

At the end of that afternoon’s battle, hundreds of pennies, most of them low dated Greeks, lay dead before the walls of Troy, upon my bedroom floor.  The carnage lay heavy on my mind, and the smell of copper was thick upon my tarnish-tainted fingertips.

Then my bedroom door creaked and opened slightly. It was my Father poking his heads in to see what was up. He quickly closed the door and walked down the hall to where my Mother was in the kitchen preparing dinner. Then I heard him say in a loud and exasperated voice, “Son of a bitch, it’s impossible to punish that damn kid!”


You were right Father. I have always possessed the unique ability to adjust to, and overcome adversities in my environment. It is a talent that has served me well for all of my years.

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

April 1861                                        

http://www.amazon.com/April-1861-Historical-Fiction-Through/dp/0692349960/ref=sr_1_22?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1422380802&sr=1-22&keywords=april+1861


Tuesday, August 26, 2014

Night Owl, White Owl


I had labored long and hard in the forest, cutting and stacking firewood. My muscles ached as I undressed and unzipped my sleeping bag. I sat upon the lower bunk and turned down the Coleman lantern. The last waves of it’s light, like ripples in a pond, traveled to the walls of my cabin, where they disappeared into the infinity of the night.

I stretched my legs down into my sleeping bag, and propped my head up with my pillow. My eyes opened just a little, seeking to answer the question of why the cabin seemed to still be unusually bright. My query was answered as my eyes were filled with the beauty of a rural Pennsylvania night sky shining through the cabins only window--with ten-thousand stars illuminating the heavens.

I closed my eyes and drifted off into a deep, restful sleep. A kind of special sleep granted by Mother Nature, only to those who labor long and hard in the wilderness of this earth.

Then, it started. After too few hours of this wonderful reward of deep sleep, it started.

“Who. Who-who-whooo.” Please go away Mr. Owl. “Who. Whoooooo. Whooooooo.”

“YOU, that’s Who.”  Uh, I am not going to put up with much of this.

Still in my long johns, I slipped into my work boots, grabbed an empty bean can from the trash, and stumbled out into the crisp early morning forest air.  “Whoooo.” I turned to face my nemesis. There behind me, on a branch of a tall, old, Hemlock tree, was an owl, a pure white owl.

I was about to toss the empty bean can at him, but it abruptly started to snow, quite fiercely, and the icy crystals stung my sleepy eyes. The owl took flight and disappeared deeper into the mystical, moonlit-snow-globe of the forest.

I turned to scurry back inside, but as I did I was struck with fright as I saw a rather large creature lumbering down the streambed on two feet, some fifty yards away. It did not turn to look at me, and I dared not take my eyes off of it. I fixed my terror struck gaze at the wall of reeds where he disappeared into the swamp.

I did not get much sleep for the rest of the night. It’s hard to get comfortable with the cold barrel of a loaded shotgun, lying in bed next to you.

I knew that as soon as it was eight o’clock, Old Lester at the General Store would have his door open and coffee brewing. At seven-thirty sharp, I started to make my way up the forest trail to the road. I followed the road down the mountain to Lester’s General Store. When I was ten feet away from his front door I saw him turn the door-lock and a dirty old sign, to OPEN.  In the course of our morning conversation, we determined that it must have been a bear walking on two legs, maybe it had cut it’s front paws and couldn’t walk on them. Either that or it was a bear that had escaped from the circus… yeah, right.


What it is, is a great story about an owl, and maybe, it’s about that big hairy thing that lives deep in the back woods of rural Pennsylvania. The big hairy thing that the locals don’t talk openly to city-folk about, or maybe, it was just the icy snow in my sleepy eyes.

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

The Letter

Dear John,

It has been over a year since we said goodbye at Fort Benning, Georgia. I'll never forget how proud I was to be there for you, standing next to your Mom and Dad. Watching you walk up to your Commanding Officer and exchanging salutes. You were the most handsome man I ever knew in my entire life. I don't remember who cried more, your Mom or me.

I know you said that because we had only been dating for six months that it was too soon to get engaged, even though you knew you would love me forever. I swear, if you had asked me then, I'd of said yes and ran right off to a Justice of the Peace, or the Company Chaplain and married you right on the spot. But you were the one that said it wouldn't be fair, because you were so certain that you would be sent off to Afghanistan or Iraq or some other hot spot in the world.

It was your idea that, only if we wanted to, we could see other people. I swear John for this past year the thought of ever seeing anyone else never entered my mind. Every night in my dreams I can still see your lips moving, saying those words over and over again, " It isn't fair, it isn't fair."

Those words were playing in my mind when your Mom called this past weekend. She told me you got hurt. You were the only member of your squad to survive one of those IED things. Your Mom and I started to cry over the phone. When we hung up I could hardly see through my tears. I jumped into my car --determined to drive all the way to Indiana to be with your folks, but I stopped when I almost hit a little girl waiting for the school bus at the corner. All I kept saying to myself was. "It isn't fair, It isn't fair." I just couldn't do it. I was too upset to make a drive like that. I turned around. Went home, went to bed, and cried myself to sleep.

And again last night, I didn't get to sleep till after five in the morning. The next thing I knew the phone rang about eight am, and it was your Mom again. She said you were in a hospital in Germany. She said you would be home in about three or four weeks.

She told me about your legs. The Doctors told her you were depressed and that you weren't talking to anyone on the phone, not even her. She was getting all her information from the hospitals communications officer.

John, I know you are depressed, you have the right to be. I know, it isn't fair. But I also know I love you, and your Mother and I are flying to Germany next week. I hope you read this letter before that. I love you more than anything, and I will always be there for you.

All my love.

Jenny